Today I am struggling.
I stayed home with the boys today because they were out of school and we had a very low-key day. While I've stayed on track food-wise, I've been sort of a mess emotionally. I wouldn't really call it a pity party but rather just a whirlwind of emotions. I'm struggling with the way that I feel about myself. My brain is constantly going and I'm constantly thinking. I am so uncomfortable in my own skin. I guess I never really wanted to admit just how far out of control my weight has gotten so I just chose to block it out. Since I've decided to get healthy, I've become painfully aware. I'm mad at myself for letting it get this bad. My husband tried several times to persuade me to get healthy but I always came up with reasons why I couldn't do it right then. I'm mad at myself for not taking control a long time ago. I know that the only thing that I can do now is to keep moving forward with my healthy changes that I'm making. That's the only way that I'm going to feel better about myself. I think I'm going to get on the treadmill and work off some of this frustration.
Baby steps. Slow and steady wins the race.
Sarah,
ReplyDeleteI love reading your post. Am sure you are feeling the same way most women do. I know I read your thoughts thinking I know how she feels. And I get so mad that I have to watch what I eat to lose this weight, that I just get fed up and say screw it I am going to eat.
Keep going girl. I love it. Keep going girl..
Trisha Muchesko
Hey Girl! Your blog is great! I joined Weight Watchers and lost 20 pounds, then I quit for the holidays. I'm about to rejoin next week to finish loosing my weight. Can't wait to read your tips and things!
ReplyDeleteOne snack I discovered was frozen french fries. They are only 3 WW points which isn't very much. Those cooked crispy with a Diet DP were a life saver snack many afternoons!