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At this week's weigh-in, I didn't lose any weight BUT I didn't gain any either. 

I will admit I was disappointed at first but after thinking about it for a minute, I snapped out of it.  Yeah, it would have been great to lose a pound or two but at least I didn't gain anything.  I realize that there will be weeks that my body just doesn't cooperate and I'm just going to have to accept that.  If I don't, I'll get frustrated and give up.  I keep reminding myself that (as annoying as this phrase is to me) I didn't gain  it all over night and it's not going to come off overnight either. I'm just going to keep doing what I'm doing and keep focused on the end goal.

With Spring approaching, it's going to be time to put away the long sleeves and jeans for capris and short sleeves.  I loathe new seasons because it means new clothes.  While I have a few "staple" items that I turn to, I like to try and find a couple of new ones to brighten up my wardrobe.  Shopping is frustrating to me because there are only a handful of places that carry plus size clothing in store so I can try it on.  And of those that do carry plus size clothes, a lot of them carry what I would consider to be "grandma" clothes.  Do these people not realize that there are fat girls under the age of 60? Seriously. It irritates me that because I don't fit the "ideal" size, I either have to deal with a very limited selection in store or I have to shop online and just hope what I ordered looks good on me.  Come on people...I'm fat, I don't have a disease. I'm not going to infect your store with fatness so it would be awesome if you would carry some stuff for me to wear that doesn't look like I bought it at Grandmas R Us or at the tent and awning store. And, just for the record, I'm a big fan of the phrase "just because they make it in your size doesn't mean you should wear it."  No, Old Navy, I do not need shorts that are Daisy  Dukes.  Quite frankly, I wouldn't be caught dead in them.  For one, I have more self-respect than to walk out in public with all my flab and cellulite flapping in the wind for everyone to see. Oh, and thanks for the skinny jeans...because putting on those skinny jeans will totally make my fat look skinny, right? NOPE! Not that I have anything against people who wear Daisy  Duke's or skinny jeans but surely  you see where I'm coming from on this one. 

So for now, I'm  going to keep moving forward because I know one day that I WILL be able to buy clothes from the regular section in ANY store I want!  Baby steps.  Slow and steady wins the race.